Veronica Parkinson

Is it safe to come out yet? Or am I going to get harassed by the paintings come tomorrow morning before leaving. Lord, what if they go outside of the school and tell other paintings...It was an accident! If anything I'm not a killer, I would be convicted of manslaughter. And either way...it's a painting!

I feel rather accomplished today.


[Warded to Lucy, Astoria, Cece]

Lucy will know what I'm talking about already. i think I would put together a girls outing before the break. I know it's a bit short notice. Maybe after the break even. It would be during but I would hate to inconvenience Lucy with her plans.

So, ideas? Is it doable? And who all should we invite?

I'm sure my mother would be very proud of me for even attempting something social. This is more Pansy's thing.

[/Warded to Lucy, Astoria, Cece]

Hexed to self I am so over this relationship. Fake or not it's more work then it's worth! I'm starting to think that I might as well just let people know I'm a lesbian! The consequences of that don't seem nearly as bad as loathing myself. /Hexed to self

Is it June yet? I am very much over the school year.

Private to self

My sleeping lately has been fitful at best. I just feel so stressed and it has nothing to do with OWLs or school. It's damn arrangement. Every time I think about it, my stomach hurts or my head hurts. I keep thinking that this could just be the start. I might have to do this for the rest of my life!

The stomach aches just came back.

/Private to self

Happy February Everyone! That wonderful holiday is coming up. The one for couples with all the red and pink. I'm interested to see what will happen around the school. I don't know about everyone else, but I have always noticed the worst kind of drama happens right before Valentines day or right after.

Warded to Astoria:Happy belated birthday!

It has been a ruddy week. I'm just happy that I can actually hold things right now. I've never felt such pain. I'm not going to forget that. I'm not going to forgive. I want to pass that pain on to those that deserve it and you know who you are!

Warded to self
I'm going to have nightmares about the screams of animals now. Never before have I heard such sounds. Why harm helpless pets when there are students who legitimately deserve a curse or two? Thank goodness it's the weekend.
/Warded to self

( Warded to Hugo )

I'm going to clear my head. Really, really, really disturbed by this morning.

I quite enjoy the lounge. I never much liked the feeling of being left out. It's an all too familiar feeling. Not good enough for Slytherin. Not good enough for prefect. My whole being seems to just be wrong! How did that happen!? Why did it happen!? Did the prefects always have a snack bar? I'll have to ask Pansy next time I get the chance. Either way, it's great, brilliant, love it.

Private
Dear self,

Why are you hiding? Don’t even try to say you’re studying for OWLS. Isn't this what you wanted? Now, you actually have to play it up, or it's just going to be waste. You'll have to live with the memory of Hugo's tongue jammed down your throat and know that it was for nothing because you started to get scared. Suffering through the trauma for nothing seems almost masochistic. SNAP OUT OF IT!
Private

( Private to Hugo )

( Private to Astoria )

I feel very much out of the loop currently and this isn't a place I like to be.

While it's wonderful to be away from the school, I find myself bored beyond measure. There are only so many times I can go shopping with my sister and get into debate with my brother before it becomes repetitive...Yes I know it's only been one day.

Anyone have anything interesting going on?

[private to Hugo, Astoria, Lucy, Cece]

What's going on? I need a distraction!

[End ward]

( I am as fulfilled, successful and self-confident as I decide to be )